First day of school!!!! Day 60
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welcome to Wednesday crazy Wednesday
morning is the first morning of school
and we're trying to get out the door
we're already running late but hey ya
know it's all working we are all gonna
be perfectly fine we will make it and my
mother just showed up so we're just
getting everybody loaded up Maya can you
fix his seatbelt please
we were just loading everybody up and
then we're gonna be on our way to take
my toes first day of school are you
excited baby yeah what's the first thing
you're excited about just getting back
with your friends
yeah are you excited to meet your new
teachable you might have yesterday you
like them yeah yes we are very excited
so anyways I will check in with you guys
in just a little bit
we just got home I ran in look I got my
normal tea this time I I didn't like
that lemonade it wasn't yesterday I
didn't end up even drinking the whole
thing I think I drink probably about
half but their lemonade's really tart
and so it was really like I wasn't it
made me more thirsty than anything so I
went back to my my normal green tea but
we just got back from taking my to
school and now I'm just gonna sit and
visit with my mom and sit and let the
kids play for a little bit but I wanted
to check in with you guys and say that
we're back and we'll talk to you in a
little bit eh okay you guys I wanted to
introduce you guys to my mom since she's
been talked about so much on many of my
videos I thought hey what is the best I
mean to bring her on so that she can say
hello and you guys can get to meet her
and get to see how she is and who she is
so it's not just a person but it's
actually a person that's could be on
video so here she is she is very shy but
this is Barbara my mom and we are gonna
spend the day together for my birthday
it's my late birthday time but it was a
day that she finally was able to get off
some work time and spend time with me
and spend time with the kids and then
she's gonna spend time with Maya when he
gets home and of course the kids are
just so excited look Ezra
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Omar is City and of course right next to
Grandma as soon as grandma got out of
the car to take my into class today Oh
Omar cried and cried because he thought
for sure grandma was leaving and I had
to reinstate with him no grandma's not
leaving grandma is just taking my just
cool and she would be right back but
yeah he was like wigging out because the
kids get so excited when they get to see
grandma and spend time with her
anyways I just wanted to introduce her
to you guys so that it was a face with a
name and not just the name oh my gosh so
picking up kids from school I swear is
like oops it's like one of the hardest
things to do I literally had to just
park and leave Ollie to go and get Maya
because like literally it would have
taken this a good probably hour hour and
a half to get in so hi honey did you
have a good day yeah if you like your
class good deal did you make any friends
you did cool beans glad you had a good
day anyway so I was just checking in
with you guys
to let you know that picking up children
is crazy crazy crazy around here
I'll have to show you one day what it
looks like oh my gosh so I just
experienced and seen for the very first
time ever so we were picking up Maya
which okay and excuse you two excuse me
the fact that I'm holding my phone so
but we were picking up my end this lady
was running across the street and I was
a cut she's you know acting really like
like something's wrong you know so I let
her go of course first before you know
she was like running running like
running fast so I let her pass me you
know like go in front of my car so she
can get to her car and she opens it up
now mind you she had been parked there
for at least a good 10 minutes because
she pulled up right after we pulled up
and she got out the same time Ollie did
and all he was out for at least 10
minutes going to get Jeremiah from the
school anyways she opens her door she
forgot her child her baby in a baby seat
in the car and you can tell she was
trying to be very like quiet hush hush
about it like she don't want to make a
big scene because otherwise people are
gonna obviously be like what you know
she making a big scene out of something
so everybody's gonna look yeah this was
like a little little baby like an infant
and I was just like oh my god only she
forgot the baby in the
our and I mean right now it's 88 degrees
outside so you know darn well it has to
at least easily be 90 in a car if not
hundred and I'm just like oh my god so
when she opened up the door the baby was
screaming and I was just like oh my god
but it just like dropped my heart
because I told only I was like dude if I
would have seen that like had I seen
that I would have bust her window to get
the baby out I don't care if I would
have got in trouble or not by the law
like I don't care I would rather save a
child than worry about you know because
here in Oregon you have to call 911
first and have them on the phone before
you can break a window to save an animal
or a baby and to me I think that's BS
I think if there is an animal or a baby
that is clearly in the car windows up
doors locked and she had her alarm on
because when she came back to the car
you can you could hear her baby like
unlock the door
but I told Holly I said I don't care if
I would have been prosecuted I mean I
don't care arrest me for saving a child
I will I will graciously take an arrest
to save her life or save an animal like
that's just BS and so yeah that was uh
that was pretty eye-opener and I just
told only I said I just my stomach
dropped like it dropped so hard I was
just it made me sick when I seen it cuz
I was just like oh my god you know I
didn't know there was baby in there but
had I known I would have made different
choices yeah Amy would have been out of
that car real quick and Amy would have
been at that car mm-hmm
busting a window out had I known that
there was a baby in there but yeah
anyways I am down at the park taking
some time for myself I just really need
it today my visit went pretty good with
my mom but and I'll fill you guys send
more later tonight but I definitely just
needed some some me time
I think amy has hit that point was like
I
like I just need a break so anyways I'm
just gonna sit down here a little bit
sorry
work on my shopping list cuz tomorrow
I'm gonna go grocery shopping and get
some stuff done that I need to do while
I'm sitting down here and just enjoying
my time hopefully you guys are having a
wonderful day because like I said it's
it's 88 but it doesn't feel it it's it's
pretty like there's a nice breeze so and
I'm sitting in the shade so it's it's
nice I'm I'm liking it so I'm gonna
actually sit and probably watch a show
or a movie or something just enjoy
myself do you mean I am here I don't
know how I'm here but I'm definitely
here oh my gosh today was it was such a
long day I'm sitting on my bed right now
I I don't even have the motion of
sitting on my chair okay I need you to
stop okay then I think you need to go
out with your dad I said no anyways so
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anyways it was a good day it was a good
day so it started out that my mom was
well she was supposed to be here at 8:30
I have to leave at 9:00 to make sure
that Jeremiah gets to school on time and
the thing is with because school is
first day everybody and their parents
take the kids to their school okay I'm
one of them so but with that is
obviously there's crowds so I told my
mom last night I said please make sure
you are a little
early because we are gonna have to leave
a touch early so that way then I can
make it through the crowd and make sure
that Jeremiah is on time he didn't not
want nobody to walk him to casa he's
like no not gonna happen this time not
this year mama not Azir so I told my mom
I said well grandma I said Jeremiah
doesn't want his you know with him to be
walked to class and she's like no no no
no no I'm gonna walk him but I'm like
he's in the back seat going and I'm like
mom he doesn't what nobody walking
because I didn't drive this far to not
welcome to Casa de I'm like oh my god
I'm gonna have both of them duking each
other out in my car right so grandma
wins and she walks him to the class but
he I guess kept charging ahead of her
and so she kept calling him and I'm like
oh my god that probably was more
embarrassing than anything for him my
poor child so anyways so the plan was we
were supposed to go shopping like after
I dropped off Jeremiah I had the the
babies pumped we're gonna go the store
we're gonna go shopping and we're gonna
have a really good day grandma's coming
yadda yadda yadda and so she gets in the
car and she's like after will she get to
the car from dropping off to her Maya at
the class she's like oh my gosh I really
just want to go back to the house really
quick and just sit and visit for a
minute like I need to catch my wings now
she somehow I don't know how she did it
but she got lost on her way here so she
drove around for a long time and I don't
know how it happened but somehow my
phone blocked her number her cell phone
number so when she was calling me it
just kept going straight to voicemail
well I guess I miss multiple calls from
her because I had her on block which I
didn't realize I did so she had called
me and called me called me well Ali was
already gone because he had business to
do today but I guess she got a hold of
him so all he's trying to tell her how
to get there now my mom is she's not the
best with directions to start out with
so she tells him she's at one place and
so he's trying to tell her how to get to
the bridge so
somehow she gets lost even more wool I
finally called the home number because
I'm just like where is she at
so my stepdad answers and he's like she
talked to Ollie Ollie told Hera the
wrong direction so I'm like oh my gosh
so I call Ollie and my poor husband he's
like not Amy I didn't tell your mom
anything she told me she was here I told
her that where to go I asked her she
understood what I told her she said yes
I hung up because I was driving and I'm
like uh-huh and she's still not
answering her cellphone at this point
but lo and behold she's walking up to
the house as we were walking out cuz I
was fighting like oh I'm just got to
leave early I have no choice so anyways
so once I get her in the car and we drop
off Jeremiah at school she was like oh
my gosh I just want to go back to the
house and just visit for just a little
bit and then we'll go shopping after
that I'm like oh okay sorry totally did
not mean to just look everybody off I
was trying to bite my eye and totally
didn't realize what finger I was using
anyways so I'm like oh okay that you
know that's fine I mean I I clearly
thought we were doing something else but
it's not a big deal
excuse my headpiece you guys I thought
my days going today I thought I would do
something fun with it and it's totally
not what I wanted it to do it's supposed
to be a bow but I tucked it down because
it was like flying everywhere and now
look at it oh my gosh I'm just I'm just
I'm I'm a hot mess tonight okay I'm just
pure hot Mattson you wouldn't know it so
anyways I said well I'm gonna go in a
tee because I wanted to you
so I go and I go get a tee and the guy
that helps me every single time that I
go in there which again I go quite often
but my husband's always with me he's
like oh it's you again you're always
here he's like I don't know why but I
never asked for your name and I'm like
all my name is Amy you know we were just
talking and stuff and so then my mom
she's in the passenger seat and she's
like oh oh my gosh he's so hot and I'm
like mom you've got to be kidding me I'm
like stop
and she's like oh my gosh if I was only
thirty years younger and I'm like holy
hell you mom I'm gonna have to see these
people again like right and she's like
oh you just made mine too he's seen you
and I'm like why why so I look at him
and I'm just like so embarrassed so he's
just laughing you know and I'm just like
oh god I and she's pure serious though
just she is pure serious and I'm just
like get me out of here like pure and
just get me out of this Dutch brothers
right now so we ended up going home
because that's what she wanted to do so
anyways so we get back to the house and
you know and I'm really I I have only
seen her this will be the second time
I've seen her in over a year over a year
this is the first time the kids have
seen her in over a year cuz the last
time that they seen her was mm I'll say
May of last year yeah so it's been over
a year that my kids have seen her and
I've only seen her twice once at a
restaurant and then today and so I was
so excited like I really was so excited
to get her here and sure what I've
accomplished was losing the weight and
wanting to show her like how I've been
able to keep the house clean and how
it's getting so organized and you know
my house has always been kept clean like
don't get me wrong my house has never
been disgusting but it definitely has
needed some Amy touch to it you know
because a man's been the one doing it
and a man they clean bless their little
hearts but they they clean they just
cleaned there's no organizing there's no
you know it's just it's clean so I you
know I was excited to show her like what
I've been doing I wanted to show her
this room and show her like you know my
little domain that I get to come to and
um so I was you know I was in the
process of showing her the house and
stuff and um and she's like oh it's you
know what's nice she's like it's nice
but she's like why don't you paint the
walls and I was like what
she's like well why wouldn't you paint
the walls to like paint like cover up
like the coloring crayons up I said well
I will eventually if it comes to it I
was like but right now because my kids
are still in that age that why am I
gonna do something when they might just
accidentally get a hold of another
crayon and doodles some more so I might
as well let them get it all out of their
system not saying here as a Crangle
color on the wall but I mean if it's
gonna happen I would rather do it now
before we do cover it up or we move and
we have to pay to have it painted
anyways so I was like well you know I'm
not I'm not gonna trying three time
paint this house like it's just not
gonna happen
and I was like especially cuz it's a
rental you know I would rather just
paint at the one time when we go to move
out and call it a day I mean that's just
mean she's like Amy even though it's a
rental you still take care of it I'm
like I do take care of it like I mean I
clearly take care of it but I just like
okay whatever
so then as I was like showing her the
bathroom and stuff and I mind you my
bathrooms not dirty like I don't think
my bathrooms are I don't honestly think
my house is dirty I you know there's
still things that I want to do to it yes
but it's it's not dirty and she was like
well I just don't know where you get
your cleaning tactics from and I'm like
what and she's like well I just don't
understand where you get your cleaning
tactics from like who taught you how to
clean and I'm like hmm okay I was like
well you know I've kind of had to teach
myself a lot of things and what I have
learned was from family members that I
lived with and she was like well I know
she's like but I just you know like you
know fingerprints on the walls or little
scuff marks would just drive me nuts and
I just don't know how you don't see and
I said I have a tuna three-year-old I
have kids they're gonna make messes
uh-uh-uh no no no no no no give that to
mama right now no you give that to mommy
I cannot have you spill that no that
will get everywhere yeah let's play with
us anyways um so anyways I was at well
you know I have a two and a three year
old you know
and it's gonna happen it's bound to
happen and I said but you know I don't
give a license to my children to go and
destroy my walls of course not but you
know when they're riding their scooters
on things it happens and you know that's
part of having children
so anyways but I you know I tried to
take it the best way I could and be as
respectful as I could and not let it
offend me
to the best of my ability even though it
was something that I really was looking
forward to showing her that I've
accomplished and so then we get it back
into the living room I was like oh my
gosh you know I want to show you some of
my youtube channel you know and I pulled
it up on the big screen TV so that would
be easier for her to watch it and she's
like
Amy I've already watched all of them I'm
like oh you have because he were where
she lives you don't get like internet
access you have to go down to the city
hall and you have to link to their Wi-Fi
to do it so it's not like she gets to
just sit and watch it but every single
day when they come up so I was like oh
you have and she's like yeah and I said
all 60-something of them and she's like
yeah I'm pretty sure I said so you see
my birthday one and she's like no and
I'm like well that one was quite a while
ago so you haven't seen all of them
because I post daily and so I was like
well here I'll show you and she's like
well how long is it gonna be and I was
like oh well you know not very long and
she's like well you know I mean I know
it's your you know it's your hobby and I
know that it's your passion and I know
you enjoy it and she's like you know and
I've seen you talking into your camera
and she's like you know and it
definitely seems like you know you know
what you're doing she's like but you
know she's like I just don't want to sit
and watch TV all day and I said oh I
wasn't expecting you to sit and watch TV
all day but I definitely wanted to share
with you kind of what I've been up to
and I was like but that's okay yeah I
mean you don't have to watch it if
you're not wanting to she's like well
you know I just say it you know for your
birthday for your birthday I would love
to you know
she goes you know again don't get me
wrong I'm not saying that you're not
cleaning good enough
she's like but you know I would like to
come and you know be able to clean your
house for you and I was like oh okay no
the whole time I you know she was
telling me all this
I was digging it's so bad I don't even
know if you guys can tell because I've
got lip gloss on him but I was filming
my lips so bad from anxiety so anyways
so I was just like you know I kind of
when she was sitting there I was just
picking and picking and picking and she
was like I'm really making you mad
aren't I and I'm like you're not making
me mad you know but I don't know like I
was just expecting I guess a little bit
different of it you know it like visit I
guess and then she was just like well
you know she's like um she's like I just
don't like to sit for very long because
I get really stiff and I was like well
you know I understand that you know I
that's fine oh I said but I'm not gonna
have you here cleaning my house like you
know I guess I took it as when she said
that I took it kind of personal because
I guess I kind of took it as like a job
to the to the gut and I guess the reason
why is because I have been so proud of
myself for what I've accomplished and I
really have been taking pride in my home
and pride in my relationship with my
journey of life change and I'm so
passionate about everything that I have
been doing that someone coming to me and
being like well I can come and clean
your house I just felt like I that it
was telling me I'm not doing good enough
and I already have a hard time inviting
people around my home because I don't
like being judged I don't I don't like
it at all
you know the thing is is that you know
everything that I do I've done training
myself I had very little life skills
taught to me before I was moved on to my
own adult life and you know the last
home that I was and I did you know a lot
of cleaning and you know caring for the
family and stuff like that you know and
that stuff taught me but you know to
like really manage a home and manage a
family and manage bills and you know
balancing checkbooks and stuff like that
I was never taught any of those things
and I'm not saying anything bad about
the person that I lived with because
everybody teaches at their own level if
that makes sense but I've taught myself
what I know and to be told that you know
oh I could come and clean your house for
you to me unless I was seeking that out
I feel like it was well you're doing a
good enough job but you're just not
doing good enough and I really took
offense to that and it really hurt my
feelings like it really it sincerely
hurt my feelings and you know and then I
just I noticed her getting very
frustrated with the babies and you know
Omar was being a handful today I'm not
gonna lie he is normally a handful and
you know I get overwhelmed with him at
times
I'm I'm not gonna sit here and tell you
I don't I mean you guys see it sometimes
but being absent for over a year and you
come into my home and you're expecting
the kids to listen to you it doesn't
work that way
you know there's they will listen to you
to a point but they're not yes they call
you grandma but that's because that's
what I refer to her as if I called her
you know by her name they would refer to
her as her name you know what I'm saying
like it's just it's really hard for me
because you know she just was there was
a couple times that she kind of you know
got really frustrated with home art and
I could see it and all I could do is
just sit there I I didn't even we didn't
even visit we didn't even talk not at
all like literally there was no
conversation
and that hurts you know I'm looking to
visit my mom and she was so just
cleaning and wiping things down and
pretty much that was what she kept doing
just wiping things down and cleaning up
and I just I don't know I by the time
you know she was gonna say until after
my ago mom and I just I think I mentally
had too much and my anxiety was so shot
that I was just like mom you know I
don't think I would I will not get upset
if you want to go ahead and go home and
I said I really I need to get the kids
laid down and I just need a little bit
of quiet time and I had reached my limit
my limit of what I could handle and I
love my mom don't get me wrong I love
her but sometimes things can get to be
too much and today was one of those days
so when she left it was just the rest of
my day my body my body has just been
like in a cloud all day all he sent me
to the park just to have some downtime
because I told him I feel like I'm on
the set of like a nervous breakdown like
seriously um not because of just my kids
I mean they've been a handful but you
know today was Jeremiah's first day of
school I was stressing about that you
know all he had to be gone early this
morning so I was having to get the kids
ready by myself which is fine but I was
stressing to make sure you know Jeremiah
was on time and then my mom was running
late so that I was stressing because of
that and then you know I've got the kids
fighting me because they're wanting one
thing to another thing and you know I've
got the visit not going the way that I
was kind of pretty planning it to be we
didn't get to go and do any shopping
that I thought we were gonna be able to
do so I thought my kids were gonna get
out of the house today didn't happen and
so I just
I think emotionally and mentally I was
so disappointed and she called and I
didn't answer the phone when I was at
the park cuz I just needed that solitude
quiet time just not not to not to talk
to or look at or entertain nothing and I
just sat there and just watched the
water flow by and I just you know I I
just get sometimes so set back to my
childhood because sometimes I feel like
you know like the comment I don't know
who taught you your cleaning tactics and
so bad I could have turned around and
said well why didn't you why didn't you
do it
where were you if I'm not keeping up
good enough
why weren't you around to teach me true
statement but of course I would never
say that because they don't want to hurt
somebody's feelings I would never bring
that up like that but it's just it's
it's almost like an emotional war that
goes on with my body because my heart's
in one place my brains at another place
and I just get so worn out that it's
just draining and so I came home from
the park and I felt better I did and I'm
really grateful that only let me go
because they really really really needed
it but definitely it was a very long day
but Jeremiah had an absolute amazing day
he said he made so many new friends
he had a corn dog and chocolate milk and
apples for lunch I always ask him what
did you have for lunch and he said his
teacher is awesome so I really have high
hopes that this this year's gonna be a
good year I'm really hoping that this is
gonna be a good year for him and he just
he was so excited when we picked him up
and so yeah I
other than that we had a good day it was
just it was a long day but I'm glad that
we're at the end of it now I am gonna go
and wash my face and get the kids in
their jammies because we are getting
ready for bedtime because this is our
new schedule but yeah I hope all of you
guys had a wonderful day I hope you
enjoyed this vlog I am so sorry that the
last two days have been your but I'm
hoping that tomorrow's gonna be a much
better day because my husband's with me
which is always a better day there's
gonna be some new boundaries setting I
think with visits and stuff like that so
I'll fill you guys send more with all of
those good things but again I hope that
you guys had a fantastic day that if
your guys's kids started school today I
hope that they had a wonderful day as
well any of you guys as kids that
started a little bit before all of ours
I hope you guys are all getting your
kids adjusted that you're all adjusting
to your new schedules because schedule
changing is not easy at all
I am gonna go put this flu flu head book
up asleep and I will see you guys bright
and shiny in the morning
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